Finally!!!
Vitamin Z - Burning Flame (original)
Vitamin Z - Burning Flame (Version 2)
Vitamin Z - Hi Hi Friend
Vitamin Z - Burn For You
Now, hopefully they'll post Circus Ring!
25 December 2008
24 December 2008
Catching up...part deux
Let's see:
Thanksgiving - disowned. Well, it does make planning for holidays a lot easier. However, it has meant that I'm still coming to grips with it as Christmas hits. I'd much rather be with the family I do still have, but finances are dictating otherwise.
The upside of Thanksgiving is that I was back in Minnesota for Black Friday...well, I rolled back into home base at 1030 after an all night drive from the family I no longer have to Minnesota.
That night, I had yet another round of "deep heart to heart" with which wound up with us decided to give dating a shot. I still have a crystal clear memory of the night we met, 1 August 2007. It was at the TA truckstop off of I-94/Exit 4 in Wisconsin. We've been dating now about a month and he's got hometime scheduled up here in three weeks. I can't wait!
So after talking to him for most of the night, I wound heading up to Superior, WI to get my D&D on for the weekend before starting my new job. First night, had a blast playing D&D and all was good. Second day, Jeff, our DM was being a total dick. I went with Alex, my former roommate, and we got back...Jeff shot his mouth off about something and I came up with a suitably bitchy remark and what followed was "Why don't you just f*ck off you f*cking gaywad!"...not in a friendly voice, but in a just go away asshole kinda voice. I just stood there for a couple of minutes and went downstairs. I sat there for a few minutes, realized that I didn't have to take that shit, much less from someone who claim(s/ed) to be my friend. I gathered up my stuff, put it in the truck and that was that. I left half a large Pizza Hut pizza there. Dicky (who is the keeper of the place) said something to Jeff when he made the gaywad comment, but I didn't hear it. Alex was the only person to say anything to me as I was leaving. I packed up my stuff and headed back to the Twin Cities.
Up to today, nothing from Dick and nothing from Jeff. As a matter of fact, Alex hasn't even spoken to me. I've spoken to Joe and to James, but that it. The deafening silence tells me a lot of just how I was thought of up there. Justin, Dick, Alex, and Jeff haven't said a word to me. I've spoken to James a couple of times since, but our schedules don't really mix. Joe is busy with work and school, but we still manage to talk a couple of times a week.
I did start my new job as a mobile unit assistant for the American Red Cross - North Central Blood Services. I started back on 15 December and I'm enjoying it so far. Training is fairly dry and lecture based, but we're starting to get more into the hands-on and practical parts of the training.
It'll be nice to have a paycheck again on the 2nd. Sadly, the joy of working and getting paid are tempered by the fact that I really don't have much to do with it aside from pay bills and pay back friends who have helped me out through the last few months.
I will be heading back up to Superior in the spring to go camping with Joe and James but that's about it. I'll still be working on the camping website I am building but well, Joe and James are talking to me. I don't see the point in talking to people who don't bother to speak to me or even seem to care that someone in their presence would bad mouth a friend like Jeff did.
*sigh* Happy %$#! Holidays.
Thanksgiving - disowned. Well, it does make planning for holidays a lot easier. However, it has meant that I'm still coming to grips with it as Christmas hits. I'd much rather be with the family I do still have, but finances are dictating otherwise.
The upside of Thanksgiving is that I was back in Minnesota for Black Friday...well, I rolled back into home base at 1030 after an all night drive from the family I no longer have to Minnesota.
That night, I had yet another round of "deep heart to heart" with
So after talking to him for most of the night, I wound heading up to Superior, WI to get my D&D on for the weekend before starting my new job. First night, had a blast playing D&D and all was good. Second day, Jeff, our DM was being a total dick. I went with Alex, my former roommate, and we got back...Jeff shot his mouth off about something and I came up with a suitably bitchy remark and what followed was "Why don't you just f*ck off you f*cking gaywad!"...not in a friendly voice, but in a just go away asshole kinda voice. I just stood there for a couple of minutes and went downstairs. I sat there for a few minutes, realized that I didn't have to take that shit, much less from someone who claim(s/ed) to be my friend. I gathered up my stuff, put it in the truck and that was that. I left half a large Pizza Hut pizza there. Dicky (who is the keeper of the place) said something to Jeff when he made the gaywad comment, but I didn't hear it. Alex was the only person to say anything to me as I was leaving. I packed up my stuff and headed back to the Twin Cities.
Up to today, nothing from Dick and nothing from Jeff. As a matter of fact, Alex hasn't even spoken to me. I've spoken to Joe and to James, but that it. The deafening silence tells me a lot of just how I was thought of up there. Justin, Dick, Alex, and Jeff haven't said a word to me. I've spoken to James a couple of times since, but our schedules don't really mix. Joe is busy with work and school, but we still manage to talk a couple of times a week.
I did start my new job as a mobile unit assistant for the American Red Cross - North Central Blood Services. I started back on 15 December and I'm enjoying it so far. Training is fairly dry and lecture based, but we're starting to get more into the hands-on and practical parts of the training.
It'll be nice to have a paycheck again on the 2nd. Sadly, the joy of working and getting paid are tempered by the fact that I really don't have much to do with it aside from pay bills and pay back friends who have helped me out through the last few months.
I will be heading back up to Superior in the spring to go camping with Joe and James but that's about it. I'll still be working on the camping website I am building but well, Joe and James are talking to me. I don't see the point in talking to people who don't bother to speak to me or even seem to care that someone in their presence would bad mouth a friend like Jeff did.
*sigh* Happy %$#! Holidays.
22 December 2008
Windows only...
So my computer pissed me off yesterday. *really* REALLY REALLY pissed me off, which is why my other big entry will be posted tonight. I'll updated the last three months in more detail and announce some other big news/changes in my life.
As for the computer issue, let me summarize:
Ubuntu 8.10 is still doing the "somethings are upgraded nearly instantaneously" and others are left with "wait for the next version". I'm comfortably familiar with Ubuntu and a .deb based system, but I cut my teeth in Linux on Slackware and then RedHat, so source building and .rpm systems don't bother me either. However, the insta-updates for security is nice, but I don't care to wait 2-3 *weeks* for a new version of pidgin to get released in .deb for Ubuntu, or a new version not getting released because it wasn't deemed "important enough".
OpenSUSE 11.1. I downloaded the DVD and installed it. Pretty installer. It installed after 45 minutes and so I launch KDE 4, very nice by default on SUSE, but I realized it hadn't installed core things that I knew should have been installed. So after battling with YaST2 for a while, I had added the Packman repository for all the "naughty" stuff that can't be distributed legally in the USA for various legal reasons. Ooops, there's not a valid mirror for Packman that I could find yesterday. No mp3, no Java, and oh, the nVidia kernel module repository didn't work. Stuff it. Done.
Fedora 10. Oops. I forgot, it won't install in graphic mode as the latest version of X.org won't recognize my LCD panel properly. All I get from it is "Input Not Supported" in a little box that dances around the screen. I could have installed it in text mode and spent a few hours going back and putting in all the stuff that I want installed by default. The text installer for Fedora leaves much to be desired, including the options to install the same files as the GUI installer does.
So, I made the decision to go with just Windows for a while and see how I deal with it. I'm at about 18 hours now. I have WinAMP installed for music, Firefox, Pidgin, and Thunderbird are purring along nicely. I'm using SEMagic for LiveJournal and so far...I've not noticed a lot of problems.
I'm still adjusting to how Windows works in terms of drag-n-drop, filenaming (oops, : and ? are naughty in the Windows world, I have a few mp3 files to rename...if I can), and all that kind of fun stuff.
It's an experiment. If it starts to really irritate me, I still have my /home and /music directories at the ready and I can have Ubuntu completely installed in less than 90 minutes. I don't see it as a punishment as much as it is seeing how the other half lives...and besides, it's nice not having to reboot to play WoW or CoH or any of the other games I play.
Well, it's almost 0800, time for me to finish getting ready for work and getting to it.
As for the computer issue, let me summarize:
Ubuntu 8.10 is still doing the "somethings are upgraded nearly instantaneously" and others are left with "wait for the next version". I'm comfortably familiar with Ubuntu and a .deb based system, but I cut my teeth in Linux on Slackware and then RedHat, so source building and .rpm systems don't bother me either. However, the insta-updates for security is nice, but I don't care to wait 2-3 *weeks* for a new version of pidgin to get released in .deb for Ubuntu, or a new version not getting released because it wasn't deemed "important enough".
OpenSUSE 11.1. I downloaded the DVD and installed it. Pretty installer. It installed after 45 minutes and so I launch KDE 4, very nice by default on SUSE, but I realized it hadn't installed core things that I knew should have been installed. So after battling with YaST2 for a while, I had added the Packman repository for all the "naughty" stuff that can't be distributed legally in the USA for various legal reasons. Ooops, there's not a valid mirror for Packman that I could find yesterday. No mp3, no Java, and oh, the nVidia kernel module repository didn't work. Stuff it. Done.
Fedora 10. Oops. I forgot, it won't install in graphic mode as the latest version of X.org won't recognize my LCD panel properly. All I get from it is "Input Not Supported" in a little box that dances around the screen. I could have installed it in text mode and spent a few hours going back and putting in all the stuff that I want installed by default. The text installer for Fedora leaves much to be desired, including the options to install the same files as the GUI installer does.
So, I made the decision to go with just Windows for a while and see how I deal with it. I'm at about 18 hours now. I have WinAMP installed for music, Firefox, Pidgin, and Thunderbird are purring along nicely. I'm using SEMagic for LiveJournal and so far...I've not noticed a lot of problems.
I'm still adjusting to how Windows works in terms of drag-n-drop, filenaming (oops, : and ? are naughty in the Windows world, I have a few mp3 files to rename...if I can), and all that kind of fun stuff.
It's an experiment. If it starts to really irritate me, I still have my /home and /music directories at the ready and I can have Ubuntu completely installed in less than 90 minutes. I don't see it as a punishment as much as it is seeing how the other half lives...and besides, it's nice not having to reboot to play WoW or CoH or any of the other games I play.
Well, it's almost 0800, time for me to finish getting ready for work and getting to it.
20 December 2008
Hi.
It's been three months, so I guess a quarterly update is in order.
Best Buy was done within a week. Done as in *DONE*. It was a HELL of a job. Enough of that.
It has taken me two months, moving out of my place and back in with friends, and a lot of frustration to finally get a new job and start putting my life back together. Eli and I broke up just about the time that I moved out of my place. I'll not comment any further here on that except to say that it was a mutual decision, but a painful one for me. My other former roommate Alex is living up in Superior.
I moved in with friends and started job hunting the first week after getting moved and settled in. I was lucky that I heard about my new job from a friend of mine and was able to get my application and resume in, interview, and get hired within three weeks of hearing of the position.
I've been in the new position a week and I love it so far.
But, in the midst of getting ready to read the mountain of paperwork for the new job, I realized that I spent a lot of time hitting various social/fetish sites that I really didn't enjoy. It was more that I went there because I was trying to get myself seen either to be seen or trying to get some salicious action.
What's the point in doing so? There isn't one.
I deleted myself from MySpace today, BearCiti got the ax and did a number of fetish sites. I've not decided if Facebook will get the ax. It very well may.
There's been one major incident of drama up in Superior that has shown me in crystal clear terms just who my real friends are up there and who just claimed to be my friend.
It's been a painful reality dealing with the changes in my life; from moving out of my old place and living with friends, realizing who my friends really are, and getting/starting the new job.
In many ways, I think it's a good set of new beginnings, but at the same time...I'm still torn up that people who I really thought were my friends turned out not to be... at all.
There's a lot more that could go in here, but I'll save it for a later post this weekend.
I am going to start posting at least once a day, if not twice (morning and evening) as my job is going to be quite demanding and it'll be a good way to blow off steam from it.
Best Buy was done within a week. Done as in *DONE*. It was a HELL of a job. Enough of that.
It has taken me two months, moving out of my place and back in with friends, and a lot of frustration to finally get a new job and start putting my life back together. Eli and I broke up just about the time that I moved out of my place. I'll not comment any further here on that except to say that it was a mutual decision, but a painful one for me. My other former roommate Alex is living up in Superior.
I moved in with friends and started job hunting the first week after getting moved and settled in. I was lucky that I heard about my new job from a friend of mine and was able to get my application and resume in, interview, and get hired within three weeks of hearing of the position.
I've been in the new position a week and I love it so far.
But, in the midst of getting ready to read the mountain of paperwork for the new job, I realized that I spent a lot of time hitting various social/fetish sites that I really didn't enjoy. It was more that I went there because I was trying to get myself seen either to be seen or trying to get some salicious action.
What's the point in doing so? There isn't one.
I deleted myself from MySpace today, BearCiti got the ax and did a number of fetish sites. I've not decided if Facebook will get the ax. It very well may.
There's been one major incident of drama up in Superior that has shown me in crystal clear terms just who my real friends are up there and who just claimed to be my friend.
It's been a painful reality dealing with the changes in my life; from moving out of my old place and living with friends, realizing who my friends really are, and getting/starting the new job.
In many ways, I think it's a good set of new beginnings, but at the same time...I'm still torn up that people who I really thought were my friends turned out not to be... at all.
There's a lot more that could go in here, but I'll save it for a later post this weekend.
I am going to start posting at least once a day, if not twice (morning and evening) as my job is going to be quite demanding and it'll be a good way to blow off steam from it.
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