from the does-community-matter dept.
*yawn* Benadryl sucks. I took two last night about midnight after downing a gallon of iced tea with pizza (talk about a recipe for heartburn!).
I woke up a couple of times during the night, most notably at 6:30ish (I think) when Jason's alarm cluck went off. It's still morse code, and one of these days, I'll figure out what it is.
I've reclaimed my now totally dead chair. I need it to actually fit under the so-called desks around here.
My ESCI 230 lab was boring as hell. I'm actually really glad we only have one lab section of that class and not two. I don't think I could handle having him for that much time in a week.
The hottie was in lab (no shock) and he's still a hottie. I'm so tempted to just walk up to him and try to strike up a conversation, but I get weak in the knees around him. How's that for messed up?
HURL 102 (Human Race and Relations) wasn't all bad. I didn't have all the readings like I thought I had. Copies Plus (the big on-campus copy place that we had to get our readings from) screwed up. I was less than happy. Class seemed to drag on today, and I'm not sure why. Maybe it was my mood...it seemed to be subtly shifting during the afternoon.
I made the GLBTA alliance meeting. Ya know, I found my "community" and I realized that I may have found the some of the other GLBTA people on campus, but they really didn't seem to be "my people". I didn't really identify with them. I felt like an outside asked to sit in on a meeting. Yes, I identified with them on a social level, but that was it. I guess I expected to see more of the stocky guys around, but the only two "bigger" guys were both flaming.
I'm not sure if I want or need that much drama in my life. I mean really. I have enough drama with school, living with Jason in a broom closet, and dealing with Joe.
I'm actually looking forward to a quiet weekend on campus. Though, it would mean that I'll have to deal with Jason all weekend. *hmmm* maybe the Cities don't look so bad after all.
I feel more comfortable and at home in the dorm (minus Jason) than I do at the GLBTA meetings. Now why is it that when I'm in the dorm surrounded by straight people, I feel more comfortable than I do in a group of my peers?
Songs of the moment...
"Putting On A Show" by The Whitlams
"Blue Moon" by the Mavericks
"I'll Forgive, But I Won't Forget" by Paul Kelly
"Somebody" by Depeche Mode
Yeah, it's a down day. Maybe it's the clouds and snow...
We'll see. I'm going to work on my novel for a while and see if this is just a reflection at my disappointment at the GLBTA meeting or if it's a more general down time.
I think I'll head over to Case Health Center (campus health service) tomorrow and get back on my Trazadone. I think the reality of this being home, the Cities not being home, and living in a paranoid closet is catching up with me.
It's official. I'm bummed out and I don't know why.
31 January 2002
30 January 2002
from the utvs-might-fun-or-not dept. I finally...
from the utvs-might-fun-or-not dept.
I finally got in contact with UTVS. I've not decided if I'm going to get into it. *mmm* side though, Nick (Dallas' roommate) is back *drool* he's yummy for a jockheaded twink. Are my whore-moans getting that out of hand, or do I just need to get it *in* hand more often. Nick's after chicks, so well, that'll not happen.
I did the three class shuffle today. We got the details of our group presentation today in CMST 192. *gag* It'll suck big time.
ESCI 230 is getting into some algebra, but it still makes sense, and we dont' have to memorize the complex formulas, just the basic ones.
POL 195 (my Poli Sci) class is dull as hell and today the classroom was like a fucking sauna.
The big hottie in my ESCI 230 class was wearing a big baggy flannel shirt today. It showed off his bulk quite well. He's about 6'10" and 350lbs. Nicely built and a nice tummy. I'd call him daddy :)
Hopefully Brad will get back to me about the floor presentation today so I can incorporate his changes into mine. I forgot an entire section of the presentation. I have to add that in then any changes that Brad wants.
Other than a growing feeling of being out of place in multiple ways, I'm adjusting to school well. I feel like I'm the only "normal" gay man on campus as the gay community here seems to be totally invisible. Being 29 and on the "SOTA" floor, which is half populated by kids anyway, I feel like I should be a prof and not a student.
Oh well. I was hoping to find some friends to hang out with and a circle of gay friends to bum around with and commiserate with, but no luck there.
I'm used to being alone by my own choice, now it's that I can't find people that I want to be around and with whom I want to spend time.
It's not homesickness, it's just loneliness. At least, I understand it.
I finally got in contact with UTVS. I've not decided if I'm going to get into it. *mmm* side though, Nick (Dallas' roommate) is back *drool* he's yummy for a jockheaded twink. Are my whore-moans getting that out of hand, or do I just need to get it *in* hand more often. Nick's after chicks, so well, that'll not happen.
I did the three class shuffle today. We got the details of our group presentation today in CMST 192. *gag* It'll suck big time.
ESCI 230 is getting into some algebra, but it still makes sense, and we dont' have to memorize the complex formulas, just the basic ones.
POL 195 (my Poli Sci) class is dull as hell and today the classroom was like a fucking sauna.
The big hottie in my ESCI 230 class was wearing a big baggy flannel shirt today. It showed off his bulk quite well. He's about 6'10" and 350lbs. Nicely built and a nice tummy. I'd call him daddy :)
Hopefully Brad will get back to me about the floor presentation today so I can incorporate his changes into mine. I forgot an entire section of the presentation. I have to add that in then any changes that Brad wants.
Other than a growing feeling of being out of place in multiple ways, I'm adjusting to school well. I feel like I'm the only "normal" gay man on campus as the gay community here seems to be totally invisible. Being 29 and on the "SOTA" floor, which is half populated by kids anyway, I feel like I should be a prof and not a student.
Oh well. I was hoping to find some friends to hang out with and a circle of gay friends to bum around with and commiserate with, but no luck there.
I'm used to being alone by my own choice, now it's that I can't find people that I want to be around and with whom I want to spend time.
It's not homesickness, it's just loneliness. At least, I understand it.
29 January 2002
from the closeted-broomcloset-of-hell dept. We...
from the closeted-broomcloset-of-hell dept.
Well, it's Tuesday, I have my financial aid stuff...
My cell is back on and Friday I'm getting new glasses. In the meantime, I'll be getting a loft for my bed and a nice human sized desk for under it.
Let's see, aside from classes this week. I have...9:30pm All-Hall Hall Council tonight. Tomorrow is "normal" and
Thursday is 12:30-2:30 ESCI 230 lab, 4-7 Race and Relations 7-9 GLBTA Alliance (if they have it this week), Friday is my glasses thing, Monday night Brad (my RA) and I are doing a floor presentation about homophobia and the issues surrounding it.
Around this, I have to write up my proposal for my Race Relations term paper and also get the presentation ready and
get it to Brad for approval then type up my "good" notes and get the role play material ready as well.
I love college :) One week from tonight, nominations (and election) of a new Hall Treasurer will take place. I'm being
nominated for it and will likely be the only person nominated/running. I'd actually like to just lose an election (based on more than one person running) but I don't see that happening.
Dallas and Nick (across the hall) as well as the other Jason now know the "secret". Dallas just shrugged it off, Jason doesn't seem to care. Nick isn't quite sure what to make of it. He's trying to be cool with it, but it's obvious he has problems with it.
The other big "gossip" around the floor is Sean's appearance last night. I wasn't planning on any real company, but he
wanted to come up and just hang out. He got up here around 9:30 and we hung out, walked around campus, and made out until around 2 in the morning. I paid for it dearly when Jason (my roommate a.k.a B.U.D.A. --> big ugly dumb ass) got up for class at 7am, it was like (UGH!) then I went back to sleep until my buddy Owen called at 10:30 to see if I was ready to run errands. We got my check cashed and I got my phone stuff taken care of and that's all good.
Now if only we could get some warmth! It's +14 and snowy at the moment with the windchill hovering in the low teens
below zero.
I dunno what'll happen with Sean. It was a casual hanging out, getting to know one another kinda thing. No pressure, no
expectations. It was a very nice evening and a pleasant change from the "hanging out" date which really means the "we do coffee, then fuck, and then go home" date. I'd like to hang out with him again. He's a really nice guy. Cute too :)
Anyways, it's 7:40, I need to get my stuff ready for Hall Council, take a shower, and work some on my proposal and floor
presentation.
News daily and updates on breaking news as it happens....
Well, it's Tuesday, I have my financial aid stuff...
My cell is back on and Friday I'm getting new glasses. In the meantime, I'll be getting a loft for my bed and a nice human sized desk for under it.
Let's see, aside from classes this week. I have...9:30pm All-Hall Hall Council tonight. Tomorrow is "normal" and
Thursday is 12:30-2:30 ESCI 230 lab, 4-7 Race and Relations 7-9 GLBTA Alliance (if they have it this week), Friday is my glasses thing, Monday night Brad (my RA) and I are doing a floor presentation about homophobia and the issues surrounding it.
Around this, I have to write up my proposal for my Race Relations term paper and also get the presentation ready and
get it to Brad for approval then type up my "good" notes and get the role play material ready as well.
I love college :) One week from tonight, nominations (and election) of a new Hall Treasurer will take place. I'm being
nominated for it and will likely be the only person nominated/running. I'd actually like to just lose an election (based on more than one person running) but I don't see that happening.
Dallas and Nick (across the hall) as well as the other Jason now know the "secret". Dallas just shrugged it off, Jason doesn't seem to care. Nick isn't quite sure what to make of it. He's trying to be cool with it, but it's obvious he has problems with it.
The other big "gossip" around the floor is Sean's appearance last night. I wasn't planning on any real company, but he
wanted to come up and just hang out. He got up here around 9:30 and we hung out, walked around campus, and made out until around 2 in the morning. I paid for it dearly when Jason (my roommate a.k.a B.U.D.A. --> big ugly dumb ass) got up for class at 7am, it was like (UGH!) then I went back to sleep until my buddy Owen called at 10:30 to see if I was ready to run errands. We got my check cashed and I got my phone stuff taken care of and that's all good.
Now if only we could get some warmth! It's +14 and snowy at the moment with the windchill hovering in the low teens
below zero.
I dunno what'll happen with Sean. It was a casual hanging out, getting to know one another kinda thing. No pressure, no
expectations. It was a very nice evening and a pleasant change from the "hanging out" date which really means the "we do coffee, then fuck, and then go home" date. I'd like to hang out with him again. He's a really nice guy. Cute too :)
Anyways, it's 7:40, I need to get my stuff ready for Hall Council, take a shower, and work some on my proposal and floor
presentation.
News daily and updates on breaking news as it happens....
25 January 2002
okay. I'm really bummed after this week. My co...
okay. I'm really bummed after this week.
My computer has been acting up, so right now i'm fighting with Win2k and begrudgingly using it to get stuff done.
The upside is that gay.com and Digital Atmosphere actually work. I'm seriously pondering Mandrake 8.1 Gaming Edition as it might cope well with Digital Atmosphere's graphic requirements.
I'm not shelling out $60 to find out...so I'll be sticking to RedHat 7.2, which I'm lucky enough to have found on sale for
$29.99 with a $20 mail-in rebate (woohoo!)
It'll be nice to be back in Linux and it's familiar confines.
I can live without .com and Digital Atmosphere, but it's the other stabilities and "features" of Linux that I really miss.
Oh well. Only two more days...
I'm off for the weekend. Next week, I'll be back to a "normal" blogging schedule.
My computer has been acting up, so right now i'm fighting with Win2k and begrudgingly using it to get stuff done.
The upside is that gay.com and Digital Atmosphere actually work. I'm seriously pondering Mandrake 8.1 Gaming Edition as it might cope well with Digital Atmosphere's graphic requirements.
I'm not shelling out $60 to find out...so I'll be sticking to RedHat 7.2, which I'm lucky enough to have found on sale for
$29.99 with a $20 mail-in rebate (woohoo!)
It'll be nice to be back in Linux and it's familiar confines.
I can live without .com and Digital Atmosphere, but it's the other stabilities and "features" of Linux that I really miss.
Oh well. Only two more days...
I'm off for the weekend. Next week, I'll be back to a "normal" blogging schedule.
17 January 2002
GODDAMNED MOTHERFUCKING ASSHOLES!!!!! Someone ...
GODDAMNED MOTHERFUCKING ASSHOLES!!!!!
Someone decided we needed to have a fire alarm go off at 1:20am.
*ugh* I'm awake now...after standing outside for 20 minutes in a t-shirt and shorts...
I. want. their. head. on. a. platter.
Someone decided we needed to have a fire alarm go off at 1:20am.
*ugh* I'm awake now...after standing outside for 20 minutes in a t-shirt and shorts...
I. want. their. head. on. a. platter.
from the oh-shit-what-have-I-done dept. ESCI 2...
from the oh-shit-what-have-I-done dept.
ESCI 230 lab today was dull. I'd never really noticed Dr. Nelson's spittle problem before...and I wish I hadn't noticed it.
HURL 102 was exciting in that the prof is a flaking PC hippie type. I think the class with be a major learning experience for the kids who are in it, but I don't think that it'll be tough for me. I'll be challenged in beliefs, but not really in knowledge.
I opted to not take my midterm/final in the class. Instead I'll be doing a research paper on "The Parallelism of the Civil
Rights Movements of the African-American and the Homosexual in America."
I think it'll be difficult i that it will be a lot of research but it will also be a fairly easy to write paper. It'll be 40% of my
grade in the class if I do the paper in lieu of the midterm/final.
I finally got my CMST 192 "Speech in a Bag" all figured out. It should be fairly easy. I'm just not real happy about the
concept of "sharing and caring" with that bunch of people.
I'm off to bed. Class calls in about 9 hours.
ESCI 230 lab today was dull. I'd never really noticed Dr. Nelson's spittle problem before...and I wish I hadn't noticed it.
HURL 102 was exciting in that the prof is a flaking PC hippie type. I think the class with be a major learning experience for the kids who are in it, but I don't think that it'll be tough for me. I'll be challenged in beliefs, but not really in knowledge.
I opted to not take my midterm/final in the class. Instead I'll be doing a research paper on "The Parallelism of the Civil
Rights Movements of the African-American and the Homosexual in America."
I think it'll be difficult i that it will be a lot of research but it will also be a fairly easy to write paper. It'll be 40% of my
grade in the class if I do the paper in lieu of the midterm/final.
I finally got my CMST 192 "Speech in a Bag" all figured out. It should be fairly easy. I'm just not real happy about the
concept of "sharing and caring" with that bunch of people.
I'm off to bed. Class calls in about 9 hours.
16 January 2002
from the I-finally-have-homework dept. Well, I...
from the I-finally-have-homework dept.
Well, I have a 3 minute "Speech in a bag" due next Wednesday. We have to use five things in a bag to describe ourselves.
I have my items picked out and all that jazz.
Other than that, Brad (my RA) has had his heads-up about my impending coming out to Jason. Brad's straight but he
understands my concerns and appreciated the heads-up about it.
How this is going to happen or when I don't know yet.
I'm off to Target for a few things I need.
Well, I have a 3 minute "Speech in a bag" due next Wednesday. We have to use five things in a bag to describe ourselves.
I have my items picked out and all that jazz.
Other than that, Brad (my RA) has had his heads-up about my impending coming out to Jason. Brad's straight but he
understands my concerns and appreciated the heads-up about it.
How this is going to happen or when I don't know yet.
I'm off to Target for a few things I need.
15 January 2002
from the tuesday-will-suck-big-time-this-semester...
from the tuesday-will-suck-big-time-this-semester dept.
I've showered and ready for bed so this will be a quickie update for today. The testosterone level on this floor would be enough to induce spontaneous abortions in most women.
The main free time activity seems to be trying to find other people to go out drinking with you so you don't have to drink
alone. "Drinking alone is the first sign you have a drinking problem." Funny, I've found that drinking just to get drunk whenever you can is a bad sign.
*Sigh* I have a note into my RA to have a meeting with him sometime. I don't know when this will happen, but it isn't
going to happen soon enough. The "machismo" on this floor is enough to make *me* sick. I mean how much bullshit can you shovel at once and still believe it?
I'd like a new roommate (preferably no roommate) and/or a somewhat decent man to date for a while and see what
happens there. As it stands, I'm not holding my breath that either event will be happening. I mean, with the sheer amount of bullshit and machismo that's flung around this floor and on campus in general with regards to what women are for and the amount of drinking that goes on...
I'm definately feeling my 29 today.
Dallas is a kick ass guy to be around and the general attitude around the hall is that Jason (my roommate) is a tight ass
who needs to unclench. Either way, I think part of the reason that Jason may be uncomfortable around Dallas is that Dallas doens't exude hetero vibes. Yeah, he hangs around the girls but it's more that he's getting his hair done and that he's just hanging out with them.
I dunno. He's not my type and I'd certainly not date him. Dallas' roommmate is your typical frat boy lookin guy. I mean
the stereotypical A&F wannabe who thinks he's uber-macho and God's gift to women.
There's a quiet bear cub down on the other end of our wing. I dunno anything about him 'cept that he's shaved bald and a
cute lil cub. Other than that, there's a tall blond jockboy next door who trips my trigger for some reason still undiscovered. That's all I've seen of attractive men on my floor.
The hall and campus are crawling with stocky guys all over the place. Now to find a few (hell, one) decent one who is gay
and looking for something more substantial than a 2 hour fuck in the afternoon while his roommate is at a class.
I'm really facing a major decision here. Do I keep myself in the closet around the dorm and out in classes? What
happens if I do a speaker's panel in a class and one of my floormates is in the class? And how long can I keep my self- worth while I lie about the women walking by and what kinds of tits/legs I like?
The other option is to come out and be done with it. I'll probably gain quite a few female friends, but I'll probably alienate
most of the guys on our floor. Coming out will make my brain much less stressed and not having to keep track of lies and such, but are possible threats to my life and property worth it?
These are the decisions that I will have to face before, during, and after my meeting with Brad about how to handle Jason
and also how to deal with the other people on the floor.
And to end the day on a lighter note:
"I wish I may, I wish I might
I wish upon this star tonight,
If I masturbate before I wake,
Please Lord grant this wish I make,
Give me a man. Masturbating is so lonely."
Written by Tracy (fellow floor resident)
I've showered and ready for bed so this will be a quickie update for today. The testosterone level on this floor would be enough to induce spontaneous abortions in most women.
The main free time activity seems to be trying to find other people to go out drinking with you so you don't have to drink
alone. "Drinking alone is the first sign you have a drinking problem." Funny, I've found that drinking just to get drunk whenever you can is a bad sign.
*Sigh* I have a note into my RA to have a meeting with him sometime. I don't know when this will happen, but it isn't
going to happen soon enough. The "machismo" on this floor is enough to make *me* sick. I mean how much bullshit can you shovel at once and still believe it?
I'd like a new roommate (preferably no roommate) and/or a somewhat decent man to date for a while and see what
happens there. As it stands, I'm not holding my breath that either event will be happening. I mean, with the sheer amount of bullshit and machismo that's flung around this floor and on campus in general with regards to what women are for and the amount of drinking that goes on...
I'm definately feeling my 29 today.
Dallas is a kick ass guy to be around and the general attitude around the hall is that Jason (my roommate) is a tight ass
who needs to unclench. Either way, I think part of the reason that Jason may be uncomfortable around Dallas is that Dallas doens't exude hetero vibes. Yeah, he hangs around the girls but it's more that he's getting his hair done and that he's just hanging out with them.
I dunno. He's not my type and I'd certainly not date him. Dallas' roommmate is your typical frat boy lookin guy. I mean
the stereotypical A&F wannabe who thinks he's uber-macho and God's gift to women.
There's a quiet bear cub down on the other end of our wing. I dunno anything about him 'cept that he's shaved bald and a
cute lil cub. Other than that, there's a tall blond jockboy next door who trips my trigger for some reason still undiscovered. That's all I've seen of attractive men on my floor.
The hall and campus are crawling with stocky guys all over the place. Now to find a few (hell, one) decent one who is gay
and looking for something more substantial than a 2 hour fuck in the afternoon while his roommate is at a class.
I'm really facing a major decision here. Do I keep myself in the closet around the dorm and out in classes? What
happens if I do a speaker's panel in a class and one of my floormates is in the class? And how long can I keep my self- worth while I lie about the women walking by and what kinds of tits/legs I like?
The other option is to come out and be done with it. I'll probably gain quite a few female friends, but I'll probably alienate
most of the guys on our floor. Coming out will make my brain much less stressed and not having to keep track of lies and such, but are possible threats to my life and property worth it?
These are the decisions that I will have to face before, during, and after my meeting with Brad about how to handle Jason
and also how to deal with the other people on the floor.
And to end the day on a lighter note:
"I wish I may, I wish I might
I wish upon this star tonight,
If I masturbate before I wake,
Please Lord grant this wish I make,
Give me a man. Masturbating is so lonely."
Written by Tracy (fellow floor resident)
from the no-not-insomnia dept. Well, my previo...
from the no-not-insomnia dept.
Well, my previous attempt at going to sleep failed. Instead, I got a 45 minute "nap" that was broken up.
Now I've endured a *loverly* set of titties from some odd girly mag.
You could die in those things!
Well, my previous attempt at going to sleep failed. Instead, I got a 45 minute "nap" that was broken up.
Now I've endured a *loverly* set of titties from some odd girly mag.
You could die in those things!
14 January 2002
from the oh-wow-he-talked-to-me dept. My roomm...
from the oh-wow-he-talked-to-me dept.
My roommate came back up stairs and let me know that Garvey (campus food service) was pretty nasty and that he pretty much knew he was gonna be sick later tonight.
"Great" I thought to myself as I headed down to the trough. It *smelled* nasty so I hit the student union again. As I
entered the main commons, this really cute bear cub looks up at me, smiles really big and says "Hey, how's it going?" I smiled back and said it's "It's going well, gonna grab some dinner." I kept walking and turned around to find that *he'd* also turned around.
Now that my gaydar has started recalibrating from the real world to being on campus, it's starting to actually pick up on
things, not just the hormone overload that's been the problem so far.
I'm still working out in my head how to deal with Jason (my roommate) and telling him that I'm not of the heterosexual
persuasion. This will be an interesting event when I come out (or get outted). I still need to find out when the GLBT group(s) meet. I should get involved somewhat with something on campus. I'm not a complete hermit. Besides, where else to find good looking guys that you *know* are at least bi, if not gay.
Anyway, Jason's out for his evening walk. I've noticed he seems to take long sabbaticals out of here. I don't know if he's
just an overly social guy (he doesn't seem it) or maybe he's got a man stashed away somewhere.
Speaking of men, Dallas (one of my neighbour's here in the dorm) is a complete nutcase. He's sorta kinda cute (get a
new hairstyle, PLEASE), but my friend Dan, who helped me move up here, and I *both* got complete hard pings from our gaydar when we met him. He just screams "FAG BOY". We'll see. Maybe he and Jason are having a thing. At least someone is getting some action, Goddess knows I'm not.
Tomorrow should be a slow news day as I have no classes. I'm looking forward to twiddling my thumbs and actually
getting to be gay for another 20-30 minutes in the closeted privacy of my broomcloset errr... dorm room.
My roommate came back up stairs and let me know that Garvey (campus food service) was pretty nasty and that he pretty much knew he was gonna be sick later tonight.
"Great" I thought to myself as I headed down to the trough. It *smelled* nasty so I hit the student union again. As I
entered the main commons, this really cute bear cub looks up at me, smiles really big and says "Hey, how's it going?" I smiled back and said it's "It's going well, gonna grab some dinner." I kept walking and turned around to find that *he'd* also turned around.
Now that my gaydar has started recalibrating from the real world to being on campus, it's starting to actually pick up on
things, not just the hormone overload that's been the problem so far.
I'm still working out in my head how to deal with Jason (my roommate) and telling him that I'm not of the heterosexual
persuasion. This will be an interesting event when I come out (or get outted). I still need to find out when the GLBT group(s) meet. I should get involved somewhat with something on campus. I'm not a complete hermit. Besides, where else to find good looking guys that you *know* are at least bi, if not gay.
Anyway, Jason's out for his evening walk. I've noticed he seems to take long sabbaticals out of here. I don't know if he's
just an overly social guy (he doesn't seem it) or maybe he's got a man stashed away somewhere.
Speaking of men, Dallas (one of my neighbour's here in the dorm) is a complete nutcase. He's sorta kinda cute (get a
new hairstyle, PLEASE), but my friend Dan, who helped me move up here, and I *both* got complete hard pings from our gaydar when we met him. He just screams "FAG BOY". We'll see. Maybe he and Jason are having a thing. At least someone is getting some action, Goddess knows I'm not.
Tomorrow should be a slow news day as I have no classes. I'm looking forward to twiddling my thumbs and actually
getting to be gay for another 20-30 minutes in the closeted privacy of my broomcloset errr... dorm room.
from the first-day-of-the-rest-of-your-life-clich...
from the first-day-of-the-rest-of-your-life-cliches-dept.
(at breakfast)
The colour of the day is "peroxide". Damn, *everyone* is frosted or bleached. What the fuck?
A more purient observation...
Sit towards the back of Garvey Commons (Campus "Food" Service) as you get to see a *lot* of beef on the hoof...
(Walking to my first class)
There are three types of men on this campus it seems:
1: Short and Stocky (Wooooooooof)
2: Tall and Lean
3: Foriegn (they fit all types but tend heavily to lean)
Two subtypes also exist:
1: Sober
2: Hungover
Is there a how to find a man flowchart in there somewhere? *laugh* Thank God I have some control over my body.
There's some damn fine men on this campus.
(CMST 192 - Intro to Communication Studies)
Oh. My. God. Ellen Degeneris has changed her name and is now a college prof. Dr. Torborg (my prof) just set off those
happy fem lesbian alarms in a deafening noise. I'm not happy about this being my first class. CMST 192 is a happy sharing class with Dr. Torborg. I have her at 10am for my first class. This is *not* how to start a morning.
(ESCI 230 - Dynamic Water Systems)
Dr. Nelson. I had this man before (I thought) when I took ESCI 220 (Physical Geology) back in Fall of 96. Thankfully,
there are *two* Dr. Nelsons in the Earth Science (ESCI) dept.
(a few minutes into ESCI 230)
OH MY GOD. This is *not* the Dr. Nelson I had before. This guy is *crazy*. Totally off the wall, flaky, fun.
Dr. Nelson's heads-up that ESCI 230 is algebra based and not calculus based got a small cheer out of a class that
seemed shell shocked at Dr. Nelson's behaviour. A strong recommendation to get a scientific calculator was given, as he will be making us use it. But also, he is teaching the concepts and ideas as well as the mathemetics of hydrology. He spent a good 20 minutes on why mathematics is useless unless you actually understand what you are doing with it. I gave his a bonus point just for that.
(POL 195 - Democratic Citizenship - American National Government)
Dr. Kilkelly is a very straight forward professor. He's there to teach, we've paid to learn. If we don't show up, we flunk. I
like this approach. Four exams make up the grade, you get a week or more notice before each one...and more importantly, the exams are weighted somewhat towards the classroom lectures and interactions rather than towards the text material. The book is (and will need to be) read but doesn't need to be brought to class.
I'm liking this even more. It's a survey of the U.S. Federal governmental system. I had this stuff in Junior High and High
School. I had to have it *and* pass it to graduate from both JH and HS. Okay, I think this will be my easiest class.
One of the guys (who is kinda cute) was sitting next to me and we were talking and I mentioned my CMST 192 class and
was informed that Torborg is a complete stickler for citation and also for APA style. She's even set down what font face and size you will use for papers. Hell, Times 12 is better than what I'd have done. I use Arial or Verdana but at 10pt.
(Atwood Commons - The Student Union)
I found out the Amateur Radio Club on campus is dead. It has been delisted for several years apparently. I have the
paperwork to restart it and get it relisted as an active organization.
I grabbed Burger King on my way through and settled in to a quiet afternoon as I don't have class tomorrow. I need to
write a paragraph (or so) answer to a question for CMST 192, but that should be a quick hand job of an answer. *laugh*
I'm excited finally about school. I've had three of my four classes and over all I'm pleased with the profs that I've
gotten. I still have my TH afternoon class from 4-7 (HURL -Human Relations- *snicker* 102 - Human Relations and Race). SCSU requires a Racial Issues class of all new students/transfers within their first year at SCSU.
I understand the intent but I think the approach is wrong.
That's all the news for now.
(at breakfast)
The colour of the day is "peroxide". Damn, *everyone* is frosted or bleached. What the fuck?
A more purient observation...
Sit towards the back of Garvey Commons (Campus "Food" Service) as you get to see a *lot* of beef on the hoof...
(Walking to my first class)
There are three types of men on this campus it seems:
1: Short and Stocky (Wooooooooof)
2: Tall and Lean
3: Foriegn (they fit all types but tend heavily to lean)
Two subtypes also exist:
1: Sober
2: Hungover
Is there a how to find a man flowchart in there somewhere? *laugh* Thank God I have some control over my body.
There's some damn fine men on this campus.
(CMST 192 - Intro to Communication Studies)
Oh. My. God. Ellen Degeneris has changed her name and is now a college prof. Dr. Torborg (my prof) just set off those
happy fem lesbian alarms in a deafening noise. I'm not happy about this being my first class. CMST 192 is a happy sharing class with Dr. Torborg. I have her at 10am for my first class. This is *not* how to start a morning.
(ESCI 230 - Dynamic Water Systems)
Dr. Nelson. I had this man before (I thought) when I took ESCI 220 (Physical Geology) back in Fall of 96. Thankfully,
there are *two* Dr. Nelsons in the Earth Science (ESCI) dept.
(a few minutes into ESCI 230)
OH MY GOD. This is *not* the Dr. Nelson I had before. This guy is *crazy*. Totally off the wall, flaky, fun.
Dr. Nelson's heads-up that ESCI 230 is algebra based and not calculus based got a small cheer out of a class that
seemed shell shocked at Dr. Nelson's behaviour. A strong recommendation to get a scientific calculator was given, as he will be making us use it. But also, he is teaching the concepts and ideas as well as the mathemetics of hydrology. He spent a good 20 minutes on why mathematics is useless unless you actually understand what you are doing with it. I gave his a bonus point just for that.
(POL 195 - Democratic Citizenship - American National Government)
Dr. Kilkelly is a very straight forward professor. He's there to teach, we've paid to learn. If we don't show up, we flunk. I
like this approach. Four exams make up the grade, you get a week or more notice before each one...and more importantly, the exams are weighted somewhat towards the classroom lectures and interactions rather than towards the text material. The book is (and will need to be) read but doesn't need to be brought to class.
I'm liking this even more. It's a survey of the U.S. Federal governmental system. I had this stuff in Junior High and High
School. I had to have it *and* pass it to graduate from both JH and HS. Okay, I think this will be my easiest class.
One of the guys (who is kinda cute) was sitting next to me and we were talking and I mentioned my CMST 192 class and
was informed that Torborg is a complete stickler for citation and also for APA style. She's even set down what font face and size you will use for papers. Hell, Times 12 is better than what I'd have done. I use Arial or Verdana but at 10pt.
(Atwood Commons - The Student Union)
I found out the Amateur Radio Club on campus is dead. It has been delisted for several years apparently. I have the
paperwork to restart it and get it relisted as an active organization.
I grabbed Burger King on my way through and settled in to a quiet afternoon as I don't have class tomorrow. I need to
write a paragraph (or so) answer to a question for CMST 192, but that should be a quick hand job of an answer. *laugh*
I'm excited finally about school. I've had three of my four classes and over all I'm pleased with the profs that I've
gotten. I still have my TH afternoon class from 4-7 (HURL -Human Relations- *snicker* 102 - Human Relations and Race). SCSU requires a Racial Issues class of all new students/transfers within their first year at SCSU.
I understand the intent but I think the approach is wrong.
That's all the news for now.
08 January 2002
from the truth-is-stranger-than-fiction dept. ...
from the truth-is-stranger-than-fiction dept.
Waaaay back in July, I had a dream about my Aussie ex Alex. It was very odd as it was a full colour dream and I was lucid in the dream. We had a long talk and we got back together. Okay, it was a one time dream I thought. I shrugged it off and forgot about it.
In late August, I had a couple of more dreams about him, in the same pattern, full colour and lucidity. Once or twice a
week, I had the dream in September and October. By the time November and December rolled around, I was having it three to four times a week. Now it's a rare night that I *don't* have the dream.
In the last 10 days, I've had the dream every night. I've been lucid in every one, full colour dreams. I've tried changing
the course of events in the dream. I've told him no to reconciliation, no to sex (we have sex after we get back together), and other situations. Every time, Alex and I wind up back together and we have great sex that night.
Normally, I'd shrug off "odd" dreams such as this. I have odd dreams from time to time, as if my mind is pulling random
bits of garbage and getting rid of them. The dream I had when I had to find my grandfather and rescue him by singing Russian opera is a *prime* example of this. My dreams, when I am fully lucid in them, and they are in full colour, are almost always a foretelling. I mean, when I've had dreams like this (full colour lucidity), the events in the dream almost always come to pass. The dream may have the events somewhat wrong or the dialogue may be different, but the end result comes to pass.
I've not spoken to Alex since around May of 2000. Why this dream has started and gotten more and more repetitive and
more and more lucid and vivid, I don't know. It will be interesting to see what will happen in the next few months.
Waaaay back in July, I had a dream about my Aussie ex Alex. It was very odd as it was a full colour dream and I was lucid in the dream. We had a long talk and we got back together. Okay, it was a one time dream I thought. I shrugged it off and forgot about it.
In late August, I had a couple of more dreams about him, in the same pattern, full colour and lucidity. Once or twice a
week, I had the dream in September and October. By the time November and December rolled around, I was having it three to four times a week. Now it's a rare night that I *don't* have the dream.
In the last 10 days, I've had the dream every night. I've been lucid in every one, full colour dreams. I've tried changing
the course of events in the dream. I've told him no to reconciliation, no to sex (we have sex after we get back together), and other situations. Every time, Alex and I wind up back together and we have great sex that night.
Normally, I'd shrug off "odd" dreams such as this. I have odd dreams from time to time, as if my mind is pulling random
bits of garbage and getting rid of them. The dream I had when I had to find my grandfather and rescue him by singing Russian opera is a *prime* example of this. My dreams, when I am fully lucid in them, and they are in full colour, are almost always a foretelling. I mean, when I've had dreams like this (full colour lucidity), the events in the dream almost always come to pass. The dream may have the events somewhat wrong or the dialogue may be different, but the end result comes to pass.
I've not spoken to Alex since around May of 2000. Why this dream has started and gotten more and more repetitive and
more and more lucid and vivid, I don't know. It will be interesting to see what will happen in the next few months.
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