Well, lessee. I'm facing finals in a week.
School is going well, but I'm starting to buckle under outside stresses.
1: I love finding out that the only reason a 'friend' hangs out with you is because they have nothing better to do and find you a diversion from their own life.
2: Grandpa Lamb is day to day.
3: #1 has pretty much rendered my trapped in St. Cloud. I'm happy.
4: Gay life doesn't exist here. I'm facing an extended trip back into a what will basically become a permanent closet.
5: See above. I'm going to get to play the happy heterosexual for a few years. I'm having no luck making friends up here. I'm an outcast on the floor. Even Jason, the roommate, has more friends and gets asked to do more stuff than I do.
Overall, I'm hitting a major lowpoint. I've been strong all semester since going back to school and refinding myself up here in St. Cloud. Now I'm asking myself, do I like what I've found?
I'm slowly feeling the weight of loneliness and isolation pulling me down. I need to find my space and find friends or else, it's going to be a long summer.
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