Odd flashbacks and pain...

Over the last couple of weeks, my friend Mike and I have had some pretty intense conversations via AIM about sex, bondage, and assorted things that we'd like to have done to us or that we'd like to do.

He's talked about coming up here and us getting a hotel room and that kind of thing.

Last night, we were talking about life and I was plenty pissed about men and how the only two guys that are anywhere near me that trip my trigger are both straight. The only other two guys that really have me interested are Jason in Cleveland (more on his shortly) and Mike (who's in Milwaukee).

Mike's follow up to that was "There's only three guys I'm interested in or wanna get busy with, they are 800, 1400, and 2000 miles away (ed. some numbers close to that) and they are all straight."

I did a double take. If they only three guys he's interested in are that far away and are all straight....

Yes kids, I've been led on for some cheap jollies apparently. Yeah. I feel wonderful.

So after all this, I'm battling with a simple C++ program for class today. I'm having problems with it, partially because I hacked up the code in about five minutes and because once again, I was overachieving and trying to use functions and code I haven't used before and really hadn't seen before either.

Jason offers to help me with it, then proceeds to rip me apart for lack of logic, messy code, and all this other stuff. I told him that I was in an Intro to Comp Sci class and he was like "Still, it's lousy code."

Fuck him and fuck his attitude. It's bad enough that trying to talk to him is like trying to call the White House and getting the President to answer the phone. I really thought Jason was a nice guy...and he may be...but he *really* rubbed me the wrong way.

Oh well. So to summarize in a handy lil table...


Tom (who I role play with): cute, romantic, going to medical school next year....and straight

Jim (who lives down the hall): cute, romantic, majoring in Earth Science...and straight (very proud of it, he brings it up all the time.

Jason (in Cleveland *strike one*): Cute, romantic, 18 (strike two), but very sharp (intelligent), but full of attitude and nearly impossible to carry on a conversation with...

Mike (in Milwaukee): Handsome, romantic, kinky, funny...but he has the unintentional ability to jerk my heart around. He broke up with me long ago due to personal strife in his life (work and parents) and I still have a soft spot for him. I just don't know how much longer I can deal with the emotional wringer he's putting me through on a regular basis.