Whoa.

I was sitting here tonight talking to my friend Jim. We were having a light conversation about Australia since we both want to go there to study for a semester. I pulled out my Tarot cards and was doing some basic readings with him when I felt a presence come rushing into my room.

I paused and knew I knew the presence. It was quickly joined by another presence I knew. It was two spirits that I had with me since I was about 10 and I've always just known they were my brother and sister.

They were absolutely demanding that I pay attention to them which is odd as they normally "visit" and then move on. I couldn't understand them, but I knew that something it was something with the Illinois trip which I planned today for Spring Break. I'm going to fly down on the 8th of March, go to a couple of hockey games in Peoria, then visit with my dad for a few days.

The only part of the message I could get was that it was something physical that would hit me like a ton of bricks. I asked Jim about it and so he tried getting the message from them. He got a huge subconcious trauma that would crumble me but would leave me better off afterwards. As I thought about this, I suddenly had a huge flaring pain in the side of my head and my right lower jaw. I knew what was going to happen...and I prayed to the Goddess I was wrong.

I looked at Jim and asked him to try to contact my "siblings" once again as I wanted to ask about a certain name. Two actually. I asked him about "Corey" and got no response. Then I asked about "Adam" and both spirits shook violently then left. Jim said he got a flash of an East Coast city...he thought it was New Jersey, maybe Pennsylvania.

Adam was my first boyfriend. In the last couple of months of our relationship, he grew violent and one time he punched me in the side of the head, then the jaw, then tried to beat the shit out of me. The last anyone I knew had heard anything about Adam, he was living near Philadelphia, PA.

Am I going to run into Adam? Goddess, I hope not. The last I knew he wanted to "finish what he started." This coming from a man who told people a year after we broke up that he wished I was dead...or that he could take care of me himself.

Such happy thoughts. I'm putting up walls of protection all over the place and will be casting several rituals in the next week.