Well, I'm not longer on the contract with Spherion. I'm still "employed" but I have no job placement at the current time.
My back is starting to hurt more and more...if it's not stabilized/equalized by the evening, I'll be paging the neurosurgeon as ordered.
Other than that, today's a shitty day. I'm feeling like I should just end it all. No job, facing back surgery, and feeling like a deadweight on the entire world...
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awww I'm sorry man :( I hope Sean is takin care of ya. I bet he is, such a sweetie. *HUG*
welcome to my world. (btw, got the message via mark, i'll contact ya or you me, in a day or so,... sunday afternoon/evening should be okay, as should Saturday too. (just getting back from a fetish bar night... fun, but now i'm confused on what day it is :">)
so yah, anyways... welcome to my world. feeling like a dead weight on the world. Tonight helped in that i have a strong feeling i made a few peoples night and livened their otherwise monotonous lives just by being there. I also took one of my stuffed polarbears who i had a leather harness and outfit made up for, with me tonight... damned thing saw more action then i did! but anyways, yeah,... seeing the smiles on folks faces, being 'complimented' by strange men on the amount of "balls" i had for wearing what i wore (see my journal post for description), and generally being there to make sure no one got hurt... (pickedup/moved two beer bottles that would have otherwise been broken and caused damaged and found the loose change spilled from the nights cashout that saved the bartender their job. So while i may not have an actuall employement job by which society measures a persons ability to 'contribute' i find the odd job i CAN do that no one else thinks of doing, or doesn't want to do... and i contribute that way.
though it does for making holiday vacation plans a bit difficult what with the green dollar being so limited in finding its way into my wallet.
hang in there, and MS isn't as bad as it sounds. (unless of course your a rare case that progresses faster than normal.) and its Ehlars Danlos, Not MS... though i can see how they'd get confused. :">
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