It's over and I'm over it.

There are wards to unset and protectorates to break. I’m disconnecting and clearing out..

*laugh* Wheeling is so heavily fortressed and warded. As if.

This place is a seething cesspool of uncontrolled and unmanaged psychic effluent. When I as a novice can clear out an entire region and set it back to how it should be...it’s not being managed/taken care of nearly as well as I’ve been told. My wards right now are starting to rattle alarms in Milwaukee and Minneapolis.

It takes a lot for me to really start to resonate ... but I’m connected to a lot of places that I probably shouldn’t be.

*looks at the huge slabs of granite in St Cloud and all the Akashic record information*
*looks around at the bear spirits that are beginning to congregate here*
*looks around at the wolves patrolling the area around him*
*looks at the spiral of energy that’s raditating out from here...and notes that it is dark red*

*reconnects to his sacred space in St. Cloud...and feels the rushing flood waters of the Mississippi River flooding over him...taking away his rage and his growing hatred*

*looks back at the spiral and notices that it’s red, blue, white and black...smearing together*


Things should be calmer around here now...but I can’t say they’ll be any better. I’m still connecting to sacred space over 500 miles away because I have no space of my own here. Red for passion/emotion. Blue for logic and healing. White for purity and insight. Black for evil and negativity.

Maybe I should just shoot past Madison and go back to St. Cloud. The job market wasn’t great...but it was a place where I was actually truly happy and at peace.

Such is life.



I call on the North...Bringer of Air...Messenger of Spirit....
Carry this message to the Elements....
I give myself to them. If I am to better serve Them in another cycle, take me from this one.

I call on the South...Guardian of Earth...Cradle of Life
Carry me home. I feel my time is done.

I call on the East...Bringer of Fire...Sustainer of Life and Destroyer of Life
Carry this message to the Elements...
I give my passion and my strength to them, to use as they need.
I am drained and cannot recover myself, but I know they know how to use my Gifts.

I call on the West...Guardian of Water...
Clear my body and my spirit of my wrongs.
Soothe the hurt I have caused others
Cleanse their wounds and help them to heal.

I call on Spirit...The Bringing and Guardian within...
I ask for forgiveness. I have failed.

*drops to his knees*

I have failed in my mission of this cycle.
I am not an empath.
I am not a healer.
I am a failure.

As I kneel here, I know that I am wrapping up my loose ends. I am done. Too many people have used me and I would rather walk away from it all than to have the Gifts that were given to me by You used like that.

Do with me as You will. If I may serve you in other ways in this cycle, so be it. If not, I ask for a quick return to the cycle and a quicker end to this one.

I, John Ray Lamb... Big Bear ... and (Ed: My True Spirit Name removed) command...

So Mote It Be.