Schadenfreude

I was reading other people’s live journals today...and realized that it’s a source of Schadenfreude. My computer is now named schadenfreude.

In other news, I have to be at work at 11am to meet our district manager and “get to know her” as she wants to “get to know me”. I’ve not had this sense of foreboding since...oh...about fourth grade. That’s what it all feels like. There’s something not quite right about it all...but I don’t know what it is.

It’s a week to my birthday (next Tuesday). I have Mon/Tue/Wed off. Depending on how finances look, I may take a trip somewhere. I just want to get away and have some fun. After that, it’s work, storytelling, and not a lot of free time as we start to ramp up into the busy season at work.

My novel has ground to a halt. I look at it, but I just can’t get started writing again. I finally got a list of characters, who is on the team (with wives/girlfriends where applicable) and a list of pre-generated names for when I get that hair up my ass to add in a new character for a chapter or two. Now, I just look at it and realize that my entire plotline has hit a point that I am not comfortable with, I don’t want to strike half a chapter out of it, but at the same time, I need to get going somewhere with it.

I’ve been toying with posting it here or on my currently-vacant personal webpage. I’ll see how things are going next week with it all and if I’ve been able to write at all. If I’m still against that brick wall, I may post part/all of it and see how ya’ll think about it. It’s sitting at about 30 pages long right now, so it’s not a short read. I just want to get it fleshed out and done. I have the story line written down...it’s just a big roadblock in the plot is causing me much writer’s block and consternation.