Brokeback Mountain...

Okay...I found this after hearing a techno remix of the BBM theme. Just hearing what was left of the theme in the remix had me thinking about the movie...and I found myself with tears running down my face. Not seeing the movie, just hearing the theme song.

I didn’t realize just how deeply or how strongly that Brokeback Mountain had rearranged my core being and my beliefs. It has caused me to re-evaluate everything in my life.

I sought mental help that I needed. I’ve not missed a day of meds in two months.

I’ve realized that where I am in my life, I have a steady job that I actually enjoy and have fun while working.

I have a boyfriend that I love, who cares about me, and while we do see things from different perspectives, I do love though things are tough right now for us.

Even though I’ve had to put off moving for a few months now due to missing two weeks of work (one week with meningitis and a week later, missing another week due to the ear infections), I’m still upbeat about moving out on my own or with a roommate. It’s looking as though it will pull together and I’ve not lost my faith that I can do it.

I’ve been feeling much more introspective lately, and it’s a good thing. I’m discarding a lot of emotional baggage.