Four hours...

Well, it's 10 minutes to 7 Central Time...

I've been at work for 3 hours and 50 minutes.  I'm exhausted, my head is pounding, and I feel like I've undone four days of healing.  I know how I feel is normal due to the spinal tap and the meningitis.

I figured out that counting the hours I worked today ... and all the time I missed with being in/out of the hospital and the Good Friday holiday... I have just shy of 40 hours on this paycheck (normally it'd be close to 80 hours).

I'll definately be hurting for the next few weeks.  I'll be selling my laptop this week and trying to come up with $500 to make sure that rent is covered, my car insurance gets paid, and all that good stuff.  I totally wiped out my saving paying off the "crucial" bills and making sure that electricity is still there and filling up my truck with gas on top of two dr. office visits and 5 different prescription refills...

Ugh, sometimes I stop and wonder why I'm alive.  Thing were going well, not I have to scramble $500 to make sure I keep car insurance, food, and make sure rent gets covered this month.  Did I mention rent this month?

I think I'm going to home, crawl under my bed and cry for a while.

I'm outta here.