Midweek...

i've not been feeling good this week, so I've been not been blogging. Monday it was a humid 84F, Tuesday the same...perfect setup at the surface and aloft for a huge severe weather outbreak...

Squall line tears towards St. Cloud...starts to bow out (very good indicator of wind damage). The gust front whipped through here with winds to 45mph, we got about .10" of rain and a nice light show.

Talk about disappointing. No hail. No damaging winds. No tornadoes.

Aaron showed up in a t-shirt and sweat shorts to class on Monday. I nearly fell out of my chair. I so wish I could get up the nerve to say "hi" to him and try to strike up a conversation.

In other news, Sean (see previous blogs) asked to do a survey for him as part of a class project. I agreed to do it. I had it sitting in my mailbox for a while and finally did it Monday night. I hadn't realized that it was a very probing and deep survey of attitudes and sexual attitudes. I didn't want to mess up his survey results but at the same time, I know that Sean won't like some of my answers to the questions. Sean and I are just friends. There's something about him I like, but he's so hard to talk to/talk with about things that I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere on getting to know him.

I'd like to move things along with Sean, but I don't think it's going to happen. I think I'm getting stonewalled on his end, so I'm going to just let it slide on past me.

As for campus news, *yawn* less than three weeks left of school. Finals start 6 May, so the semester is quickly screaming to a halt.

GLBT Services has managed to totally make me feel alienated. I mean, they are doing nothing for non-traditional students (read that as 25+), they've had *one* program on size issues. All the panelists were under 25 and all looked like A&F or Structure models. What the fuck do they know about sizeism?

So, I'm an out gay man on campus, with no community. Owen and I are going to take the summer and deal with Granite City Bears over the summer in terms of planning and publicity. I'm not even sure I want to deal with it. I mean, getting word out here at SCSU will be difficult as GCB will not be a student organization and so not entitled to those "perks". That will also help us, as we won't have to suck up/kiss ass to the University or GLBT Services.

I turn 30 on Labor Day weekend. I'm single, alone, and feeling like an fishing float adrift in the waves.

Songs of the moment: "Blue Moon" by the Mavericks
"Forever Young" by Alphaville
"Somebody" by Depeche Mode

That's the catch up for the week so far, such fun and uplifting news...