Another day...

I'm back to reading When Things Go Wrong by Pema Chodron.

I need the mental support and tools to deal with my personal life and find that mental grounding that I need.

I've not decided how to handle Mike. He doesn't want a relationship so that's right out but yet I just feel like I've been burned one too many times. I can't explain it, but it's a bad feeling that it's a cyclical thing that would keep happening.

At least Mike will have his professional life to keep him company as he pushes the people who try to care for him away. This is quite amazingly similar to what Alex had said back in 2000.

I'm starting to wonder if it's *me* that's defective, broken, mal-adjusted or what ever you want to call it.

Only time will tell the true nature of men's hearts and our own souls.

I'm off to work on The Pioneers for a while. Love may escape me in real life, but I can write about it.