I’m having an extended period of depression and repressed anger...
I don’t see the point in discussing it....it won’t help. It’s the same old shit...rewarmed...and it’ll be glossed over and then it’ll catch fire again in a few weeks. It’s a dysfunctional pattern that just keeps happening...
Why do I fight for what I know to be good and right? Why do I try to help other people to help themselves? Why do I keep trying to better myself when in all reality I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I thought things were going well in my life, but in reality, almost everything is going wrong.
I need to reset my mental balance and get away....and quit worrying about all the failures in my life right now...no matter how many of them there are...
I would list all the shit that’s dragging me into that dark horrid pit of self-destructive thoughts...but it’s not fair to those involved...and I’ll face the reality of the fact that no one truly gives two shits less.
I’m not going to be posting for quite a while, that is, if I ever post again.
6 comments:
*hug*
You should list em all. It's good to get it all out on the table and sort it out.
You DO realize there ARE those of us who "give two shits", ne?
(HUG)
if you end up checking out, good luck with what comes after.
Otherwise, goodwill with what happens durring.
Ok been there.. hell still there.. and you have poeple right there for you.. I won't jump your shit you're doing al by yourself.. and I'm no better.. Dirt naps are not fun if you start them depressed.. ride the storm and let it all go..and you have my address so if you need a place to disappear.. you're welcome..
Here's where I say something inspiring and comforting... but I'm not always too good at that, so... yeah. I guess it's the thought that counts.
I had no idea things were like this for you. I'm sorry I've been pushing you on the database.
The important thing is to start looking after John. Period.
If I can help you do that, then by all means, let me know!
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