Okay.
I’ve had it.
As of 4.30am today, I have enough link to Spirit to continue teaching my student and that is it. I have temporarily severed most of my links to the astral and things around me until the shit storm blows over. There is only so much I can take at one time before I start to crumble from overload and overextension...and I’m there. I will continue to teach my student as I have before, possibly with more focus and direction now that I’m not being torn in 4 directions at once. My links, ability, and energy are available to me if I need them in case of emergency. They are in storage in several places right now. I’m hoping this will allow me to focus on cleaning up the mundane mess around my life and also to focus better on teaching my student as that is one thing that I feel has been suffering through all of this.
I’m sick of having my empathic abilities played and manipulated. I’m sick of people trying to think for me, plan my life for me, and I’m most completely sick of people trying to arrange things in my life. If you want to meddle in my life, ask me first. See if I want (or need) help with something. Many times, I have things well under control or where I want them. Meddling just moves things around and can often have the complete opposite effect of what you are trying for...
I won’t be making myself nearly as available to people as I normally do. I will not be my usually chipper happy bear self bouncing with empathy and support. If emergencies arise, I’ll be there as always, but don’t be surprised if I blow off the mundane and small things that you all should know how to deal with already.
For my student: I will be expecting to have the discussion on the guides and their lessons next Tuesday. I also plan to start teaching you the basics of energy work and most importantly controlling energy both on the astral and within yourself. What is happening to me is a prime example of why control is of the utmost importance.
For the other student: Read.
For the protector: See all the above.
I’m quite sure that no one will read this or see it. I just need to get it all off my chest and let you all know where I stand.
7 comments:
I totally understand where you're at on the whole being abused empathicly thing. *hug* Hope you can find your balance again.
wow, I didn't know you were a spiritual teacher or guide. I wish I had one of those here in Indy :(
*HUGS*
*hugs* I am sorry if any of this is more than what it appears. I am sorry for everything JT.
Many times, I have things well under control or where I want them. Meddling just moves things around and can often have the complete opposite effect of what you are trying for...
Ahmen to that statement. I keep fighting that battle myself. So i know the struggle.
Its even harder when i can't take the time to explain why i'm doing things in the order i am, because they wouldn't understand, and in most cases believe that i'm insane and require outside medling in my life even more so! ugh.
*hugs and rubs* Good luck on your endevour and all things related.
If I lived in Indy still I'd offer to help. I don't teach, but I offer advice, and a different way of looking at things.
I've had enough advice... what I need is a teacher who can be there with me and guide me through stuff. Where should I move? :)
I'm open to having another student to learn the Shaman's path.
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