Long time, no type...

Hi gang,

I've been very quietly lately.  I'm busy at work and I've been trying to right the financial ship at home.

Work has actually been something I look forward to, as I don't really have time to think about the SS Titanic that is my budget.

Rent is paid for October as is Comcast.  Electric is still unpaid, gas isn't gonna be gotten, and food is gonna have to stretch for two weeks.
I paid bills and my check was gone before I even had a chance to see how much it was.  *sigh*

Two more weeks of absolute austerity.  I'm going to go to one of the local food shelves and see if I can get some extra groceries to keep going.  I still have just under a half tank of gas, so I can get to and from work until Monday or Tuesday.

I'm physically sick from the stress and insomnia is becoming a daily (nightly) occurrence.  I need to get away from it all.  I was hoping to get my anti-anxiety meds refilled, but that's not happening either. 

Providing nothing else goes wrong...(*PLEASE*)... I can set aside the 1st half of rent for November and pay off the very past due electric bill, get a lil bit of groceries, and have gas for that two weeks.  I won't be doing anywhere or doing anything for at least a month...so my computer and I are going to be getting very very cozy.  *cries* Every single time I think I've gotten ahead, something else happens.

I'm about ready to just give up on it all.  I need to $1 balance my TCF and live on cash for a couple of months.  I can handle cash much better than I can a debit cards.  Cash I can see and I know exactly how much I have at any time.  I keep climbing the hill, I get just short of the crest and I slide back down a bit.  It's never totally down the hill, but yet, it's so damn demoralizing.